hmm...how should i start this..

ok

i went for my first ever driving lesson last saturday and here's what happened
11:45 reached early. wait. wait. anxiously wait. 12:05 start of lesson. find instructor! found instructor. get in car. get out of car. instructor shows me parts of car interior & exterior. teaches me how to change a tire. found out my full weight can hardly loosen a bolt on the wheel. -_-
got back into car. instructor drives me to this parking lot. we swop places. he attempts to teach. i attempt to drive. much confusion.
stall. stall. stall. jerk. vibrate. jerk. stall. stall. and finally, some moments of smooth movement. stall. stall.
instructor decides to let me try driving round the circuit. i drive. i turn. try to turn actually. gets disorientated coz of extra hands trying to keep me in lane away from oncoming traffic. -_- i manage 2 rounds until the bell sounds. end of lesson 1.

today..was lesson 2.

i was nervous at the start coz i ended lesson 1 alittle uninformed abt the workings of a car (all that stalling!!) fortunately, my instructor was better than the previous. i stalled at the start..a couple of times. i think that surprised him abit..? coz i looked so clueless!!!!!!!!!!!!
anyways he helped me out..i managed to suck less and stall no more. *yay for me*
got to do abit of gear changing..didn't get it at first..kept doing it wrong. but towards the end i was not good but alright. hmmm.. apparently my reaction is slow..which isn't good. but i try!! i can only try lor
so at the end of the whole thing i definitely needed more work but at least i survived!! and didn't crash anything!!! although i did come close to ramming some oncoming as well as neighbouring cars... -_-!!

so that's it..for now.
i'm half looking forward to the next lessons. hope i suck less & less

resolution post..?

first post of 2005
it's a sunday afternoon and i'm home..slow lazy day
had brunch in the late morning with the family and headed back home

hmmm
i was just thinking..
of quite abit of things
things i wanna do..things i wanna get..things i wanna change
so this is kinda like a new year resolution post
let's see
i would like an ipod mini!!!!
goodness..since we got one for free (which my sister took) coz of this broadband internet promo..i've been itching to buy one for myself

now for the serious bit..
i've also been thinking that i haven't really achieved much since i graduated
after a social mingling session recently..i felt so inadequate
like a kid..confidence got alittle crushed and i clammed up and felt sorry for myself
i would very much like to do something..as in work towards a career i'm proud of
you know..do something i have the passion for..doesn't have to be high paying
doesn't have to be glamourous..where i don't have to climb high up the corporate ladder..which i really have zero interest in
so yaa..but to do that i'll have to be taking a huge risk..scares the shit out of me
just thinking of the possibility that i may suck or fail
but i think it's better than not being particularly proud of one's work..?

hmmm...