i'm miserable and i can't seem to tell anyone abt it
i don't know how long i'm gonna be stuck in this misery
believe me..i would give anything to get out of it but so far
nothing works
nobody can help me either

i've thought of killing myself..probably driven by anger
it's a terribly scary thing to think of
but i don't have the guts to
neither can i leave behind the things & people that keep me going now
it's a stupid thing to do anyway..since i'll be throwing away the rest of my life
so all of you people who care and are reading this now
don't worry
i'm just depressed..
not suicidal

i don't understand why shitty things always seem to happen to me
feel like i'm losing it
this is sick
just thinking abt it makes me so sick

unleash the evil me..

it's so frustrating how some people are just so mannerless and impossibly irritating!

just had an encounter with one such person on the way home from cityhall just now
was about to get on the bus when this tai-tai type lady on her cellphone..pushed past me and headed straight for the bus!! i was SOOO ticked off and the first thing i did after she pushed me was kick. yup. i kicked. extended my size 4, 2++inch heeled right foot at her. i didn't hit her though..that would have been ugly.
anyway i headed up the bus only to find that lady in my way..i don't know why anyone would push past someone rush up a bus only to be unprepared to tap her ez-link card?!
i mean..what was all that rushing for?!
now i was REALLY pissed
so i pushed past her..purposely..and elbowed that bloody woman!!

it's so unlike me to be so 'violent' but man..that felt pretty damn good
and i didn't feel a single ounce of guilt AT ALL

wooohooooo!
it's quite exciting and terribly insane to be evil
i hope i don't get out of hand! ;P

Quote of the day

this is part of an email i just received..

"To err is human but to really foul things up requires a computer."
- Anonymous

Niiiiccceeee

yesterday

yesterday
was valentines
ooOOoo
had my first proper valentines day date with a date
yuuuummmmmm
;P

gong xi fa cai

where has all the fun and excitement of chinese new year gone to?

i think the festive spirit is dying..quite sad actually
i don't feel as excited about the new lunar year as compared to when i was much younger. i remember we - me & sisters & cousins - would really look forward to visiting and collecting ang paos & just hang out & talk & play. we even used to go shopping for new year clothes together with our mothers!
but now we've all grown up..times have changed..we're slowly losing our culture..we've got badly behaving westernised punk poser kids..ohh lemme change that..PEOPLE..EVERYWHERE now..goodness how some grownups are impossibly poserish as well..
i don't know
it's just different
i'm not exactly the most articulate person but yaa i don't think any amount of firecrackers or fireworks will ever bring back the old feel of chinese new year back

ohh what i would do to go back in time..back to the time of huge plastic glasses and bad clothes..well at least back then..things were simpler?
kids were less stinky..people were less obsessed with material things and looking perfect

bleh

outcast

had this horrid moment this afternoon..
when me & my family headed to the bugis area coz me little sis had a craving for laksa. we happened to pass by the temple on the way to the stall so mum suggested going in to offer some incense. all of us except me
coz i've been deemed too 'dirty' to enter the temple and offer blah coz i was perioding. like ermmm...
felt like such an outcast..a reject as i stood waiting outside the temple in the horrid hot heat of the afternoon.
i wonder how and where and why such a rule came about.
i have nothing against the religion but why should one be deemed unfit to enter a place of faith and worship because of a natural and humanly feminine quality?

nonsense?