1 week since my last post..
despite the depressing last post..quite alot happened since then.

i shall try to recount everything worth mentioning..

i went to a salsa club! at amara hotel..quite interesting..never been there. the people there all seem to know what they're doing so i was very hesitant to get up and try to learn some steps..! too self conscious! i did eventually pick up one basic step..outside of the club! so silly! of all places..outside the club!! anyways..i would definitely go there again and this time..i promise to attempt to dance..INSIDE the club! =P

i quarreled with alot of people. yea..that was nuts.. i won't go into detail coz it's over and all's ok.

i had dessert at haagen dazs on christmas eve!
2 little portions of warm apple pie..served up with a scoop of vanilla and a scoop of strawberry icecream..with a drizzle of raspberry sauce.. YUMMmm...

on christmas itself..i went to sketches at bugis..with hopes of having a nice christmas dinner.
i'm a big fan of spaghetti vongole..hmm..i think i'll dedicate my next post to vongole! coz if i were to talk about that now..it's gonna be a very long post so i shall just get straight to the point.
the spaghetti vongole at sketches..was very disappointing. i think the chef has no experience or knowlegde about what the dish is about and how it should be prepared.
i won't condemn sketches just yet..coz i did really enjoy my marina pasta the last time i was there so i hope the other dishes don't disappoint as much as the vongole!

my dad finally came back from his week long trip to hainan. he arrived at 1+ am sunday morning. i drove the rest of the family to the airport that night..it was nuts..driving so late at night..trying to remain alert coz i'm not quite a night person..my sisters can verify that! anyway we got there safely, picked up my dad and my sis drove us all back.

i saw some relatives i haven't seen in years..my grandmother and my uncle. you might wonder why i don't see my own relatives? that's another story..too long & complicated to tell. anyway my grandmother..i don't really know what to think about her. she looked uneasy when i looked her in the eyes. i could see that she doesn't really know what to say to us..her only granddaughters..i don't blame her for that..coz unfortunately, we never had a relationship.
on to the most unpleasant thing that happened over the last few days..my uncle. i've never hated him more than i did that night. there was NO ounce of goodness in his face. at all. we all felt it. he didn't even have to do or say anything..you can just see it in his face. no good intentions at all. such a snob..the way he looked at us..like we ( me & my sisters ) were so inferior and below him..like he hated us almost as much as we hate him.
i never want to see him again.

i don't understand why some people can resort to unscrupulous measures to harm others..their own family even. it's most likely coz of jealousy. too envious of what others have achieved? don't they know that whatever harm they try to cause upon others..it'll ALWAYS come back to them? what makes them think they won't get away with it? or do they think what they're doing is right? that they're only just trying to get what they deserve? or that they think they're immune coz they pray to whatever gods it is they believe in for safety? what a load of shit.
the only person..or should i say being that probably knows you and what you've done would be your god or whoever you might be praying to. there's no hiding or deceiving..i strongly believe that they know. you must be a huge hypocritical sinner and terribly delusional to think you can pray for good things when you cause harm upon others. it sickens me..using religion as a shield..reason for one's immoral behaviour.

*exhales*

it's sad huh..the evil side of humanity..

i guess you might have figured out that the long story about my relatives has to do with what i just wrote above. i normally won't talk about it coz i know not everyone will understand or even believe what i have to say but it does feel quite good to have shared abit of my thoughts.

so there you have it..an account of my quite eventful and emotional week.

longest week ever

things are pretty sloooooooow here at work this week
coz the boss isn't around
longer hours for me..you can call it admin support..
less paper work to process so i'm now playing the part of a part time receptionist


i've been driving alot since last weekend..ALOT
sending my dad off..driving to and from work..
actually that's about it..very routine
so routine that when i woke up tuesday morning..i thought it was thursday..and that the week will be over soon..but no..


there isn't anything for me to look forward to these days
i usually head home after work
no plans..abit sad
makes the week harder to get through


i miss the chicken stew at soup spoon..

please..?

monday morning..

i'm back at work.

for those of you who happened to have dropped by my page randomly..i work at my parents' company, a small company started up by my dad. i know some of my friends don't think my job here is a proper one - 4-5hrs a day, 5 days a week, and i get a net pay of about a thousand - since i work for my own parents and not for others and also coz i don't even work a full day!
there are some days when i agree with them..unfortunately..those days are especially hard to get through..

BUT what they don't know or probably won't understand is i feel that it was fate that brought me here. i can't really explain it, there's too many little incidents that resulted in how i feel now.

i've been wanting to blog about this for quite awhile but i never could bring myself to post it..it must have been one of those days when i was feeling completely down and had zero confidence about what i was doing, agreeing with the people who had doubts about me and just generally feeling sorry for myself.

fortunately, i do know a handful of people who actually do support what i do and i'm very grateful for that
so i guess this post is dedicated to the people who doubt me, who think i'm wasting my time

PLEASE..

have alittle more faith in me. don't doubt my choices and abilities.

most unjustified title ever

if anyone caught the telecast of Miss World 2005 over the weekend..you might agree with me that the win televised on tv was completely unjustified!

2 hours
100+ contestants strutting their stuff..dancing in swimwear..smiling and posing
there was no question & answer segment

so essentially it was a 2 hour long flesh parade
and at the end
they crowned their "beauty with a purpose"

the only thing we, the audience know of the newly crowned beauty is that she's a part time police officer and law student..and well..she is quite pretty.
but that's it!
no more.

i don't even remember if she spoke! even if she did..all she probably said..like every other contestant they interviewed..was 'oh the people are so warm, so welcoming' or 'xie xie ni' or 'ni hao' since the event was held in china.

can it get any more shallow?
this has to be THE worst pageant i've ever seen to date..besides the extremely cheesy 'miss earth' pageants..