resolution post..?

first post of 2005
it's a sunday afternoon and i'm home..slow lazy day
had brunch in the late morning with the family and headed back home

hmmm
i was just thinking..
of quite abit of things
things i wanna do..things i wanna get..things i wanna change
so this is kinda like a new year resolution post
let's see
i would like an ipod mini!!!!
goodness..since we got one for free (which my sister took) coz of this broadband internet promo..i've been itching to buy one for myself

now for the serious bit..
i've also been thinking that i haven't really achieved much since i graduated
after a social mingling session recently..i felt so inadequate
like a kid..confidence got alittle crushed and i clammed up and felt sorry for myself
i would very much like to do something..as in work towards a career i'm proud of
you know..do something i have the passion for..doesn't have to be high paying
doesn't have to be glamourous..where i don't have to climb high up the corporate ladder..which i really have zero interest in
so yaa..but to do that i'll have to be taking a huge risk..scares the shit out of me
just thinking of the possibility that i may suck or fail
but i think it's better than not being particularly proud of one's work..?

hmmm...