hmm..

was at the temple today...apparently it's one of those 'big' days..the birth of someone..? i forget
anyways it was quite depressing and at times really irritating
the first thing i noticed while walking towards the temple was this voice singing..chanting some kind of buddhist phrase..?
it came from this middle aged lady in a wheel chair with a younger guy by her side...her son i suppose. there was soo much sorrow in her voice.. & her son was begging for people to give them some money.. heartbreaking..
but i didn't do anything though..feel alittle bad

*sigh*

later when i finally got into the temple..it was crowded but not too bad
getting incense & getting it lit can be quite a challenge! goodness!! it's quite insane esp when there's like people around you EVERYWHERE either trying to do the same thing OR trying to get around the place with LIT incense OR stationary people offering respects to the gods OR people trying to get their way around the temple!

in the short few minutes i was there gettting incense lit, offering it & making my way into the actual temple...i had people bumping into me..one woman brushed passed me..crashed past my arm which was holding onto the incense!!! she looked back but didn't say anything..neither did she look sorry!
like helllo?! we're in a crowded place..the least one can do is try to watch where you're going & raise your lit incense higher in the air so as not to hurt anyone?!Ergh.. such behaviour makes me sick

*sigh*

i got alittle teary eyed & choked up coz of all the incense smoke..while trying to navigate my way through the crowd..

bleh..

i think i'm losing faith in religion..actually no..i'm losing faith in whatever you call the 'way of life' i've been exposed to all my life
my parents call it buddhism..
i think otherwise
it isn't
it's partly the buddhist way of life plus alot of other age old chinese traditions
yaa..that's the part i don't get
frustrates me sometimes

i wish i didn't have a religion..no i'm not atheist coz i do believe in a higher power
i just don't see why people have to divide themselves further into religious groups when we're already divided by our countries & our race. i mean we really are no different from one another..?