i'm miserable and i can't seem to tell anyone abt it
i don't know how long i'm gonna be stuck in this misery
believe me..i would give anything to get out of it but so far
nothing works
nobody can help me either

i've thought of killing myself..probably driven by anger
it's a terribly scary thing to think of
but i don't have the guts to
neither can i leave behind the things & people that keep me going now
it's a stupid thing to do anyway..since i'll be throwing away the rest of my life
so all of you people who care and are reading this now
don't worry
i'm just depressed..
not suicidal

i don't understand why shitty things always seem to happen to me
feel like i'm losing it
this is sick
just thinking abt it makes me so sick